the rigor mortis bend šŸŽ“

RigĀ·or MorĀ·tis Bend (noun):
The last turn of the track during a 400-meter race where the finish line comes into view, the moment during which your body seizes up and your lungs begin to gasp for air. In other words, the homestretch.
Before we begin, here’s a delicious playlist to set the mood for this blog. I was going to hit y’all with the super tear-jerking, nostalgia-inducing music but I decided against it- this is a slightly happier one. Not to toot my own horn, but I would say that this mix of bittersweet nostalgia with stereotypical, carefree and upbeat teenage-esque songs is the perfect encapsulation of senior year.

Now, about senior year. I’ll admit, my primary takeaway from this first semester isn’t thought-provokingly profound nor elegantly introspective; rather, it’s this:
Carpe diem. C’est la vie. And, continuing with this trend I’ve set of spewing mottos in beautiful languages, YOLO.
As an almost-second-semester senior, I’ve come to the realization that nothing is as important as you initially anticipate it being. I mean, yeah, strive for good grades, cultivate your friendships, write and (feverishly) rewrite your college essays, do your best in whatever you put your mind to. But just know that no matter what happens, everything will work itself out in the end. I promise.Ā 
B’s (or lower) on your transcript won’t ruin your life. College rejections are (truly!!) blessings in disguise. Breakups aren’t the end of the world (honestly, they’re probably for the better). High school will come and go, don’t overthink it; as with everything, there’ll simultaneously be both good and bad parts.Ā Ā 

First, the bad parts. Here’s a list of arguably not-super-fun things associated with these past four years that you’ll (thankfully) probably never have to experience again after you graduate: (Not to jinx it though!)
  • Being unjustly dress-coded for wearing a not-even-that-cropped crop top (one of my friends once got dress-coded for not zipping her quarter-zip-pullover all the way up to her chin)
  • Aggressively being jostled around while trying to make your way to class in the crowded hallways (PSA: you are to stay to theĀ right of the hallways. This is absolutely nonnegotiable.)
  • Frantically texting your parents to call you out of your fifth period Econ class because you didn’t prepare enough for the test (this isn’t throwing shade- I’m sure 99.97% of y’all have done this before)
  • The infamous after-school parking lot traffic (if you have the patience to sit through that, hats off to you; I truly believe you have the power to do anything you put your mind to)
Now, the good parts. There’s also a whole bunch of objectively exciting parts of high school that you’ll probably think fondly back to after you leave the four walls of this building:
  • Having an abundance of assigned-seating-chart friends (the ones that you’ll always talk to in school but will probably never reach the point of closeness of being able to carefreely communicate with each other beyond the times of 7:45am – 3:10pm)
  • Collective hatred for gym class as a foolproof bonding moment with complete strangers <3 (except for Strength&Performance, which has somehow breeded a literal cult of weight-lifting fanatics??)
  • Sprinting back into the school after leaving campus for lunch, with 40 seconds to spare before the final bell rings (50 minutes seems like a lot of time until you’re speeding down Ogden at 1:16pm in hopes of being on time for your seventh period class)
  • The gossip, don’t lie!Ā 
Anyways, what I’m trying to say is that you’ll inevitably have at least some memories associated with high school. In this last year, why not try to make the most of it? Create memories- these are the ones you’ll remember 5 years from now, instead of spending late nights futilely cramming for your Calculus test the next morning.
Here’s my rule of thumb: do what you want to do, but also do what you don’t want to do. As the multinational-apparel-corporation Nike so eloquently states, just do it.
Things that you 100% have to do, and probably (hopefully!) already plan on doing in your senior year:
  • Scream UCLA by RL Grimes at the top of your lungs in the Dawg Pound at the football games
  • Dance in silly little costumes and lip-sync to the greatest memes of our generation with your best friends in Airband
  • Obsessively stalk other members of the senior class and risk being reported to the Naperville Police Department for trespassing for Senior Assassins
  • And this, this one is important: tell your crush that you like them (this mostly only applies if they also attend North)
    • Listen, this is your chance. In less than 6 months, you can make the choice to never have to see them again. Shoot your shot!!
But, even more than that, do the unexpected/little/random things too: (And do these all without fear of judgment! Senior year has taught me that – and I mean this in the nicest way possible – people genuinely don’t care about you as much as they think you do; everyone’s trying to live their own life, they don’t have time to judge how you live yours.)
  • Participate in Spirit Days: Groutfits have always been socially acceptable, but they’ve been especially destigmatized for seniors. Reap the benefits of this privilege.
  • Go to the LatinX Dance: Even if you can’t dance, it’ll be one of the best nights of your life.
  • Get school lunch: Hear me out, it’s free (for the rest of this year, at least) and it (probably??) isn’t entirely lethal. Try it at least once, you (probably??) won’t regret it. Live, laugh, love Aramark.
  • Pop your head into random classrooms after school: Join random clubs that you’ve never even heard of before (even if it’s just for a day).
  • Sign up for the Couples dance in Orchesis: It’ll be fun, in a simultaneously ironic and unironic way; regardless Tuesday nights in the Dance Room will be a source of endless laughter, sweaty palms, and jerk dancing.
  • Spend time with your family, and at home: These are the last few months before you’re confined to moldy dorm rooms, crappy dining hall food, and constant pangs of homesickness.
  • ^But, hang out with your friend as well: There will come a moment when you’ll be surrounded by all of them, at once, for the very last time. The second our tassels are moved to the left, everyone will be set on different paths: envy-incuding vacations in Bora Bora, unpaid tedious internships (for the experience & resume-building!!), minimum-wage retail jobs… So, do Secret Santas, go on late-night Target runs, embrace the essence of impulsivity.Ā 
Senior year may be a year of lasts, but it’s not too late to also make it one of many firsts. So, before that highly-anticipated date of May 22nd, do yourself a favor and seize every little chance that’s presented to you. There’s not much to lose, it’ll be over before you know it.
*Ā Okay, I don’t actually know if the Rigor Mortis Bend is a real term (can any runners confirm or deny??), but I first learned about it from The Running Dream by Wendelin Van Draanen (would highly recommend if you’ve never read it before, but keep in mind that the target demographic is like, 12 year olds). Regardless, I thought the phrase would be fitting for the title of this blog.

4 thoughts on “the rigor mortis bend šŸŽ“

  1. Hi Bibiane,

    This blog has been such a refreshing break from some of the more boring aspects of senior year– although academics and college is important, it is our last year after all.

    I applaud anyone who rushes to the lot right after school. I tried, but it only lasted a couple weeks for me. I also feel passionately about school lunches. I’d say that the only downside of sixth period lunch is running out of curly fries šŸ™ On another note, I believe that you introduced me to Ribs by Lorde, and I’m so glad you did! You mentioned your hatred of PE. PE for me, (self defense) was actually one of my favorite classes! In addition to learning how to hammer fist, use my voice, and escape from an attacker from behind, it was a relaxing period that I had with a couple of my friends!

    Thanks for this insightful blog.

  2. Hi Bibiane! I love this post! I’m glad you were able to learn so much from your senior year, and I hope that future seniors will be able to learn from your experiences and your advice in order to amke the best of their own Rigor Mortis. I love how much you’re encouraging people to make the most of the social opportunities that school has to offer; I especially love your advie to join random clubs after school, even if it’s just for a day (I really have to try that one out haha.) I hope second semester brings just as many lessons and as much fun as first semester bought for you! šŸ™‚

  3. That playlist is fantastic; I especially appreciate the inclusion of “Cigarette Daydreams”, “We are Young,” and “Ribs.” (I liked your playlist on Spotify, please follow me back haha). Your advice reminds me a lot of one of the paragraphs I wrote, except due to my own inability to take myself seriously without disclaimers, I prefaced it with “I know this doesn’t feel true but you have to believe it anyway.” I admire the ability to say, even as a form of comfort/advice, that everything will be okay no matter what. I’m still too scared to make that leap.

    Not going to lie, I’m genuinely stressed about the absence of classroom friends – I absolutely rely on being forced to spend time with people to form the basis of many of my friendships. I’ve heard that maintaining friendships takes more effort in college, and even more than that in regular adult life, and I am absolutely not prepared for it.

    Your list of “things that you 100% have to do” gave me so much hope. I lowkey forgot about Airband and Assassins and am so excited about both of them, and the “joining random clubs” things is such a fun idea.

  4. Hey Bibiane! Thanks for sharing! I greatly appreciated this post, and loved how you went over the all too many relatable negative facets of Senior year, but also juxtaposed it against the pressing more importance of enjoying life! As you said, “Carpe diem. C’est la vie” šŸ™‚ They are beautiful languages, as you said haha. Your list of the good things, as well as this overall mindset are definitely important and I’ll try to adopt a similar mindset – after all college apps are done right!

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