When I tell you that I have the worst case of senioritis, I am telling you that I have the worst case of senioritis. Watching my sister go through it was bad because we were online for the second semester of her senior year. So I actually didn’t think it existed. But god I was so wrong. I can’t even bring myself to go back downstairs and grab my computer to start working on an assignment. My motivation and effort have just dropped straight to the ground and it will just be somewhat impossible for me to bring it back up.
Freshman year, I would come home from school and do my homework the moment I walked in the door because I did not want to do it so late in the night. Then I would also be able to just relax the rest of the day if I got it done. I wish I could go back to that motivation I had then. Even with studying. I would spend HOURS studying for a test so I would be ready, and I would stay up so late. The first time I failed my chemistry test, was just an absolute mess. I cried for so long and whined so much about it because I would study for so long, and do bad. Then over time that just became a constant thing to study and still fail, so now I just don’t sit down for more than half an hour studying.
When it comes to me pushing things off, it creates more stress for me and really tops off my anxiety. But the best thing is, I do it to myself and I know that I do it to myself. Literally, right now, I have had so much on my plate this week, and I am writing this blog on my way to U of I in the car. Oh! And my math assignment actually rips me apart. I am so bad and doing an assignment constantly. We get assigned homework every day and have to submit our answers to GoFormative then take notes for the next day’s lesson and submit a picture of it. Then at the end of our unit, the whole formative is due. So usually about 2 nights before the test I will scramble in homework answers and stress myself out because those are what is holding my precalc grade together at the moment. So I definitely need to stop doing that, but I just know that I won’t. Especially after spring break…I will be clocked out.
Hey Aiyana! I can totally relate to you and I bet others can too. After I saw the picture on your post saying, “I just want to be done done done,” I could relate because every weekend during this whole semester I would repeat those same exact words in my head. I was completely fine last semester as I finished everything on time right when I came home as you did in freshman year, but this semester I seem to be pushing everything to the last day before an assignment is due. And I agree with how much stress it creates but it does not stop me from procrastinating again. Thanks for sharing!
Aiyana, I just began to reflect on this phenomenon the other day when I got back the worst grade of my entire highschool career, and I wasn’t even surprised or disappointed in myself. I’ve been toying with my grades for the past month or so, seeing how little work I can do and still keep them up. As a straight A student in the past, my mental state is actually surprisingly healthy considering the damage that has been done just in the past week to my AP stats grade. The interesting thing for me, is that I have enjoyed the last few months of school more than ever, and it has started to realign my priorities which somewhat worries me. Will I return to my strict study habits when the time rolls around in the fall or have I embraced the dark side and am now destined to become the student that I always feared becoming? Only time will tell. Best of luck to you in your senior year… best of luck to both of us.
Hi Aiyana,
I totally know how you feel. If even junior Willow saw me now, she would be absolutely shocked by how much I have “let myself slip”. I’m not even that bad yet. I still get *most* of my assignments in on time and I try not to procrastinate to an insane degree, but my motivation to study and get the the perfect grades is not there. So yes, I have Senioritis, but is that truly the worst thing in the world? I am still involved in extra-curricular activities, and the time that is not spent studying is otherwise well spent hanging out with me friends. So I perhaps have a midy unpopular opinion: having Senioritis is ok, as long as it doesn’t get too bad. I think that people just really need to asses their priorities Senior year, especially second semester. I always ask myself: would I rather remember having a good time with my friends, or stressing myself out over AP Chem? I loved your blog post, it definitely feels good knowing that I am not the only one. All I can say is: good luck to our April Progress Reports 🙂
Hey Aiyana, I bet nearly all seniors right now can relate to you. I mean personally, I used to kick myself for any grade below a 90. Now, when I get a 68 on my math test, I don’t feel anything. I just toss it aside and say, “eh, better luck next time.” I used to strive for perfection and actually try, but the last couple of months have really seen my procrastination take over. I know it’s not a good habit, but I kinda see it as pointless to change now. Hopefully, I’ll change in college. Good luck with the rest of senior year!
Aiyana, I definitely find myself relating to you when it comes to grades. I used to be a really hard worker, but making myself care about my assignments in literally any of my classes has been way too hard this year. And honestly, I don’t care how my grades this semester end up going – it’s not like colleges will care unless I’m straight up failing. But it is a little concerning. I don’t want to have this lack of motivation once I’m in college, especially once I’m tens of thousands of dollars for the education I’m slacking on. At the end of the day, I hope Senioritis is just that, and that my work ethic will be back going into the next year.
Definetly would have to agree with you about catching a bad case of senioritis. Freshamn and sophomore year were my peak grades and I’d blame it on my consistency with coming from a private school and being absolutely murdered with homework each night, as well as spending plenty of hours working on it. Not to mention my busy schedule with club volleyball on top of extracurriculars, I had absolutely no time to fool around. My schedule would consist of school, homework, volleyball practices, shower, sleep, and repeat. Junior year was where it all went downhill. With no volleyball and practices to go too that meant I had to find motivation within me, which was nearly impossible. And it was then where I missed my time management skills and tried HARD to adopt them back. By senior year I completely acquired my junior year habits which I am least proud of. I think I lost all motivation once I got into my top schools.
I can relate, but I’m probably a far worse case. As for me I’m probably addicted to finding excuses not to do work. In fact I think I’ve taken a liking to more laborious tasks. If something needs to be cleaned, I would much rather do that than work. I would rather lift 300lbs then lift my fingers to type. Perhaps it’s the simplicity, the instant gratification of seeing your results makes you feel good. When I see an A, I really feel nothing. Now when that grade goes down, I used to panic, but that constant repetition of worries has stopped almost like pain getting numbed. I wish I used to have that same twinge of pain and displeasure when seeing grades drop because it would provide a reason for me to work harder though I wouldn’t be here in the first place if it was effective. I wish there was a time management class though the real question is would I even take it because it eats up something more valuable to me which is time.