I’m so excited for college. I got into 9 out of the 11 schools, including my top 2 schools. I think I already know where I want to go but I’m scared that it will be just another Naperville bubble. I know that I can find people who are similar in the way I think there but I don’t want to leave college feeling like I have no life long friends. I’m mostly nervous about college because of the people. I don’t want to hate everyone and I don’t want everyone to piss me off just by their presence. I’m ready to be surrounded by more mature people and I’m scared if I go to this particular college that I will hate it because of the people. It’s the perfect college for me, 3 hours away, very well known and it’s one of the big ten schools. I could see myself there just looking at the pictures. 

Sadly, it doesn’t have a riding team but I can always just go to the rec center 6 times a week if I have time. Maybe I could use a break from riding, I’ve been doing it since I was 5 and it’s literally ALL I know. I feel like I need to give myself a break, especially after this season. My horse and I won everything, I mean literally everything, and it’s way more than I ever asked for. During the season we were the Non-Pro and Children’s hunter champion and now once the season is over and all of our points have added up we are grand junior hunter champion for the full year of 2019. We also won our whole equitation division. ( I don’t expect anyone to understand anything I just said)

I think that after a stressful season and many other seasons before, I deserve a few years off. Maybe it will be good for me and I will learn more about myself. I will have more time to socialize and focus on school which will be a big change because riding has taken over my social life but I’m not complaining. 

I’m excited to go tour the school and see if I feel like I would fit in. I’m planning on touring all of the schools I’ve gotten into, to make sure it is the environment I want to be in. I’m trying not to get my hopes up with the schools that I really like because I’m nervous that ill go and then end up hating the school and finding something about it that doesn’t fit me. 

I got a $20,000 riding scholarship from a D1 riding school and I feel stupid because I don’t know if I want to take it. I love the school but I don’t think it will be the best place for me. I don’t want to say the name of any of the schools because I don’t know where I’m going yet so I don’t feel like it’s that important.  

I have learned so much throughout this college experience. I never thought that I would end up being okay to go to a school that doesn’t have a riding team. The person I was a few months ago would probably slap the person I am now. 

I know now that it’s okay to leave a path you have been on for years to follow your heart and go to a place that fits you. I know that I will have to make more sacrifices in order to go to the best school for me. 

Anyone who is reading this I want you to know that it is okay to lose something if it means that you will be going to the right place for you. And just know that eventually, that important thing in your life that you lost will come back.