All my life I have been I have been questioning my faith, weather if i really believe in god nor if I even want to. My family is catholic, everyday they would bring me to church and I wouldn’t listen or I just would be uninterested. That all changed when I went to timber wolf lake in Michigan. Timber wolf lake was a young life camp which is a faith youth group. I started to go to young life early sophomore year when my friend Jake invited me to come. Instantly young life clicked to my life. I kept going more and more and my relationship with god kept growing and growing.
Summer comes and I go to timber wolf lake. The people in young life have been my best friends I have ever met and i’m about to spend a whole week in a cabin with them. I did everything with them. I went to the beach, had 3 meals a day with them, got dirty, cleaned and so much more. I really felt like these people were my family.
Everyday after dinner everybody from every school and all around the country came together for something called club. Club is many sorts of games and funny skits. But at the end a speaker came in to talk. Her name was Kelsey and she had something new to say everyday that moved my mind and changed my perspective on my faith. Her words were so powerful that I started to rethink my life and how I should really live it.
One day when I went to club Kelsey described how much we are worth it as people. As people we have a purpose. One thing that stuck out to me was that god has a purpose for everyone and everyone’s purpose is individual and unique to change the world and make it a better place. After her message she told everyone to walk out of the room and go to a spot by the river and talk with god. It was silent. Everyone was so moved by her words. Tears were dropping. I sat down on a cold rock and the first thing I told god was that ‘’ I promise you; and I trust you.” those words kept repeating and repeating because I believe that my purpose is to move and inspire people, and be an icon and a leader through music. I know that though god i will achieve my dream and fulfill my purpose. My conversation with god was a conversation I needed to have. It established that i will achieve my dreams. Most importantly, I trust him to lead me on that path no matter how long it takes, and I promise I will listen to him and take his advice on how to do so. As i’m sitting by the river i’m seeing everyone going back to their cabins. People come to me and ask if i’m OK. Even though i’m sitting there crying like I
Eventually there is no one in sight. Everyone has gone back into their cabins. I have the river and beach to myself. The view of the sunset and the sound of the waves isolated my thoughts with god. I’m sitting there by the water alone and I decide to get up and go back to my cabin. The next day my young life leader Jason comes up to me and he noticed that I was gone and I was still talking to god when everyone left. He told me he did the same exact thing when he was my age. He told me that he is so proud of me that I am walking a journey with god. Jason told me that he sees himself in me. Wanting everything but not knowing when these things will come. He told me that my dream will be fulfilled. Jason is one of my best friends and he changed my life forever the day I met him because he has been a leader and an icon for me and he sees that in me and I know god sees that in me.
The camp was like a paradise that was too good to be true. We didn’t know what was going on in the world. We didn’t have internet nor our phones. I honestly thought that living here was like living in heaven. No distractions were everyone is together and there is nothing to worry about and life is amazing and filled with so much positivity. I was scared to leave because I didn’t want to leave this paradise with everyone I love, but at the same time, I was glad to go back because I was going back to the real world with a purpose and a dream that i know will come true in time. I also have a new perspective in life to give everything I have everyday to god. But most importantly I have a mission to be a leader and icon for people and so far; I’ve noticed that it’s coming true. I’ve started to go to church and actually involving myself and showing myself and letting everyone know my dreams. I know through god and with the people I meet and cherish in my life, my dreams will come true.