It’s been a lil weird thinking that we’ll never be going back to high school again. Aside from e-learning and such, we’re basically…graduated? The idea of school ending has taken kind of a very long time to register with me; when it was first announced that the rest of the year was cancelled I was honestly somewhat indifferent about it. Kinda just wanted the assignments to be over with and for summer to come so we could move on from this mess of a senior year. But even though I am eager to just skip forward to college, leaving will be pretty bittersweet. Since the past few weeks have given me plenty of time to get myself nostalgic about my high school life before it even ends properly, here’s a list of things that I’ll be sad to leave behind:

 

My friends

This one’s pretty obvious, and I don’t think there’s any senior that’s not sad about this. But since school got cancelled, I’ve just been realizing how many things I’ll never be able to do with my friends again; 

off-campus at Abby’s house, mirror selfies in the bathroom near the chem hall, walking to the library after school to cram, Cheeto Tuesdays (hopefully you’re reading this, Lavina), driving down Plank with the windows down and the music up on the way home from school. And even though I’ll probably get to see them over the summer, it’s sad to think that when I go to school next year, they won’t be there with me anymore. Especially since I’ve gotten so used to seeing them every day for the past four years (or even seven years).

 

 

 

 

My bedroom

I don’t think I usually have trouble sharing things. In fact, I’ve had to share my bedroom 

with my mom quite a few times for various reasons. But having someone else living with me in my room will probably be a little weird (will I be able to properly stress cry under my sheets if my roommate could walk in at any time?)

Also, my room does get pretty messy (as in: extremely unpresentable) at times, especially if I’m stressed, and I usually just get by with the comfort that no one will be seeing the mess except for me. Sadly, this won’t be the case next year.

 

My bathroom

I think not having my own bathroom will probably be even stranger for me than having to share my bedroom, to be honest. For the past nine years, my bathroom door has been the only one that locks properly. So, as weird as it is, I’ve found a certain sense of comfort in being able to feel completely alone in my bathroom, and having to use a hall bathroom where there’ll be other people there while I do my night/morning routine will be a weird thing for me to get used to. 

 

My doggy!!!!

Cuddling with my dog is my one and only source of true happiness (haha jk) (kinda), and I have 

absolutely no idea how I’m going to deal with not being able to come home from school and see her waiting for me at the front door. Also, she’s probably going to be confused and upset when I don’t come back and thinking about that almost makes me tear up sometimes ngl.

 

 

 

 

 

My parents

As annoyed as I get with them sometimes, having an adult in the house does give me a sense of security (especially when I can depend on them to help with my dishes or other chores if I don’t have time, and take care of me when I get sick). Also, I’ll probably miss not being able to go upstairs and give my mom a hug whenever I feel like it 🙁

 

My house

Since OOS tuition is hella expensive, my parents are planning to move to Michigan within the next year, which means when I come home, it won’t be to Naperville anymore. Even though I sort of hate my house, I’ve lived in it since second grade, and leaving it will definitely be a sad time. Also, my neighborhood and the road outside of it is always so peaceful to take walks in, and it’ll be strange not being able to see it every day. 

 

Downtown Naperville 

I absolutely adore downtown Naperville—ever since I was little, going to the Hill and walking down the Riverwalk 

has always made me so happy, and downtown has been a part of some of my best memories growing up.

The familiarity of the place is always so comforting, even when I’m walking around alone, and I don’t think any city will be able to replace this. Also, the coffee shop at Barnes and Noble has, over the past two years, become my favorite study spot and I’ll miss not being able to go there every weekend to stress study while hyped on caffeine.

 

 

 

 

Not worrying about money (too much??)

To be honest, I’ve always been kind of worried about money (even if I’m barely spending any). But also, whenever I need new clothes, or maybe want some new skincare products, I don’t have to worry too much about being able to cover it. In college, however, with all the debt I’m about to get myself into, running out of money will be a serious thing, and I can’t just ask my parents for some extra cash anymore if that happens.

Even more than just money, though, I guess I’m also a little nervous about having to start taking care of more adult responsibilities in general; I know college is a chance to start anew and live with freedom, but at the same time, it feels like my childhood is truly coming to a close and I’m not sure if I’m ready for it.

 

           Since this is the last blog I’ll be writing, to everyone who reads this, I hope y’all have a lit 😉 time wherever you end up next year, and stay healthy through quarantine!!!!!